Okay I need to be really really honest here.  God is doing some really cool things, and some of these things He is doing through me, and to be honest, I have been feeling like I want to shrink away.  It is overwhelming.  That's the only way I can really explain it- I'm not quite completely in tune yet with why I feel like its a curse that God is working through me, I just want to be honest because I know that if you're reading my blog, you're most likely someone who loves me, so maybe you could just pray against the accusations the enemy is throwing at me.  So I never really fully grasped the power of this quote until now-

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us most.
We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and famous?'
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that people won't feel insecure around you.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us; it's in all of us.
And when we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

A Return to Love - Marianne Williamson